Testimony Night

Wednesday night huddled in "the cave" with my outreach team.

At one point a comment was made something about sitting in a cloud of foot smell.
Hey we are out playing in the slums with kids all day in Thailand. Yes our feet smell at times.

Anyways we shared short testimonies of what God has done in our lives.
And we did it in a way that we didn't focus on our pasts and ourselves, but we focused on how God has transformed us.
Oh my goodness it was absolutely beautiful.
Sitting in a room with just a tiny itty bitty fraction of the church sitting in this den and I was blown away by how the revelation of Jesus brings freedom and overwhelming joy.

I get such a huge smile thinking about how my life has been overhauled by the king of kings!

I put on masks.
I told lots of lies and exaggerated a ton because I desired others approval.
I exhausted myself trying to be perfect.
I never showed weakness.
I strived to meet everyone's expectations.
I was all about my own image.
What I did was who I was.
And who I was I was always going to be the best. Anything less wasn't enough.
Point guard. runner. Girlfriend. Best Friend. Valedictorian. "Christian". Daughter. Etc.
It was exhausting and never ending work.
Then one day, God told me I was enough.
Gradually, I have realized more and more that I am enough.
Not on my own accomplishments, but because of what Jesus accomplished on the cross.
I have been adopted by my Father in heaven and he calls me holy and blameless.
I am a daughter of the king and my identity rests in my daddy.
I know now that fear of failing, Fear of disappointing others doesn't exist when I regard the approval of my God above all else!
Instead of wanting people to give me attention and give me praise I take so much joy in pointing others to the one who gave me life.
Although still I fall so hard on my face and my life is full of struggles.
My joy doesn't rely on circumstances but in the truth of who my God is, was and always will be.
The life I've been given is literally beyond my dreams.
I didn't know I was allowed to dream this big.
God is good and more than worthy to be praised with my life and yours.


In Thailand with a group of people who believe in the same thing and act on it is so insane.

Praise Him.