Preparing For Departure

I am sitting in the Lubbock airport waiting on my flight to Austin. An hour or so flight time. No big deal, but judging by the way my chest is beating inside my heart. I mean my heart beating inside my chest. You would think I was traveling halfway across the world.

In 89 days, I will be.

In 89 days I will be leaving my family, friends, my home. I will be leaving everything I am comfortable with for 7 months, at least to, be a part of the Y.W.A.M Herrnhut photography-discipleship program. I am kind of thinking I am a bit crazy right about now. Kinda.

I've been preparing and for 89 more days I will continue to be prepared for what will be the biggest adventure in my life yet!!!

I'm not sure just exactly how everyone around me feels about this adventure of mine. Or exactly what they think is going through my head and heart. Well, there is a ton of excitement, a ton of this nagging, burning feeling in my heart that won't go away and there is fear. Like many times before in my life my fingers are turning white trying to hold on to everything that I know and love and am comfortable with.

BUT, in my heart there is also peace. Because somewhere along the way of graduating from the small town of Ralls High School to graduating from West Texas A&M I was found by a God that I love more. A God that placed that burning, nagging passion inside of my heart to follow and chase after Him before time even existed. I am pursued fiercely by a God who tells me that this life of mine is but a vapor. Here today gone tomorrow. A God that loved me so much that He took joy in allowing His only son to become sin in my place. A God that continually breathes life into me and has commanded me that with this life I am to go and share Him with others. A God that tells me that if he is for me there is no one who can stand against me, and nothing that can separate me from that. A God that tells me that He is always with me and a God that shows me daily how this life has nothing to do with me and everything to do with Him and His glory. I serve and am bound to a God that is actively living in me and gives me a peace that surpasses all understanding. Now tell me how I can blatantly say no to a God like that? I can't and I won't. Through obedience to such a God and father there is the freedom and romance that you can't resist.

There are days I'm sure that you have experienced where fear cripples you and You don't want to step across that line of comfort and there are definitely those days that you your heart hurts or the days that you don't feel nothing at all. But believe me, if you press on an press in to our God you will discover everything that is worth knowing.

Be blessed friends.