This past December I graduated fromWest Texas A&M University with a degree in mass communication. I walkedacross the stage where most are more than ready to walk off the stage and leavecollege in their rearview mirrors. As I walked across it felt good, but at the same time it feltreally awkward. I wasn’t ready toleave everything that West Texas A&M was to me behind. It just didn’t feel right. So I took my degree, let my mom hang itup in my room back home and am now continuing my life in Canyon, Texas for onemore semester as a graphic design major, a member of the WT track team, aresident assistant at Centennial hall and I am finding myself right where God completelyintended me to be.
After making my decision there wasdefinitely a period of time where I became discouraged and questioned mydecision to go back. I was solely thinking about my own reasons for going backto school; my friends and track. While I was at home for the break betweensemesters track workouts were awful and I began to feel like maybe Canyonwasn’t the place for me anymore. Maybe I had selfishly made my decision and Iwas holding on to something that wasn’t mine anymore. God gave me exactly whatI wanted and I was questioning it.
It is funny how we do that. We askfor something and God cares enough to listen, but when we get it we complainand don’t realize what we’ve got right in front of us. In the small group I ama part of we have been going through Exodus. The story about the bread fromheaven that God gives to his people has completely been wrecking my life. In agood way. They complain and Hedelivers. In the morning when the manna appears on the ground the people askwhat is that, because they don’t recognize what God has given them. They doubt God and out of fear theywould rather run back into slavery because it is familiar and comfortable. God allows them to experience and seewith their own eyes how faithful He is. They are given the opportunity topersonally interact with Him and they still complain and disobey.
The past couple of weeks God hasbeen faithful in supporting me financially through school, physically inworkouts, emotionally providing incredible joy and mentally He is completelytransforming me. He has stirred my heart and humbling me in allowing me to be used. Topersonally witness hearts being changed all around me.
Psalm 8:3-5 says
When I look at your heavens, the
work of your fingers,
the moon and the stars, which you
have set in place,
what is man that you are mindful
of him?
And the son of man that you carefor him?
Yet you have made him a little
lower than the heavenly beings
and crowned him with glory and
honor.
Who am I that God would use me todo His work or to personally witness it? God doesn’t need me, but He chose me. In Hebrews it says that for the joy set before Him, He chosethe cross. He took joy in choosingthe cross because he knew that that meant a relationship with me. The God that breathed out the starsbreathed life into my lungs. Hegave me His spirit. The same powerthat resurrected Him is the same that is inside me. Who am I? I am His and I amright where He intended me to be. Not because I need to redeem myself as anathlete or simply for me to enjoy my time with friends, but I am here toglorify His name in everything I do. In every practice, every race, everyclass, every hopeless situation and in every one of my relationships. In mywords, actions and thoughts. All things were made for Him.
Proverbs 16:4
"The Lord has made everything for its (His) own purpose, even the wicked for the day of evil.
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